Wednesday, March 24, 2010

New scans+no more chemo= what if? in our rhabdomyosarcoma world

Our cancer journey if coming to a close on Friday. at least this part of it anyway.

We are going off treatment and I am terrified! Terrified? you ask. Well living on treatment is easy so to speak. You know you are working on killing the cancer. You have a mission and a goal-the end of 45 weeks of treatment. We as a family have put our life as we knew it on hold to an extent and now we have to transition back to that old normal. while still living with the effects cancer has had on us and especially Zach.

We still have many follow up appointments. More scans every 3 months for 2 years and scan for up to 10 years after that. Zach can also have side effects we have to follow up with for the rest of his life. So truly nothing will ever be "the same."

But-

We must live life! Living, Laughing, and making memories. Not for the "just in case" but for the just because. Just because my 2 boys are and my husband are wonderful and we all have a blast together! Just because they are still under 5. just because I love them. Because Jesus said do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow has enough worries of it's own.

so-how do we go on? Happily. Joyfully. Praising God for how far we have come and how far we have yet to go. Praising Him in the joyful times and the sad time. Praising Him always.

We can not live in a what if world. We just live.

Please pray for us on these last 2 days. Our pet scan is at 10am 03/25 and our results discussion is at 1:45pm 3/26. (CST)

Jennifer

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