Monday, September 28, 2009

What faith can do

Please Watch and listen. This song spoke to the depth of my soul. If you ever wonder how we do it. how we watch our child suffer. It is only through our strength and peace we have in Christ. I have included the lyrics as well.

Kutless - What Faith Can Do From the album It Is Well
Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it’s more than you can take
But you are stronger, stronger than you know
Don’t you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining
I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do
It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard
Impossible is not a word
It’s just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody’s scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It’ll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing
I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do
Overcome the odds
You do have a chance
(That’s what faith can do)
When the world says you can’t
It’ll tell you that you can!
I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do
That's what faith can do!
Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Oh, the places we may go!

We have more information we would like to share with everyone and let you know some specific prayer request we have. We got the radiology report back on Friday; it shows that the tumor has blood in it and active cancer cells. Zach received 6 weeks of radiation this summer to kill those active cancer cells; chemo is used to shrink the tumor. Because the radiation did not kill all the active cells, we need the tumor to come out. Zach has an aggressive form of cancer so those active cells will continue to grow and multiply. As I said last week, it’s great that the cancer has not spread and the tumor did shrink some but still having active cancer cells after 6 weeks of radiation and a large tumor in the pelvis area means we are still at a very critical stage in decision making and treatment for Zach.
We also have more specific info on Zach’s tumor shrinkage. His tumor has shrunk 60% overall.He had 96% shrinkage in the abdomen area, which leaves the tumor in Zach’s pelvis area still the size of about an orange. It’s all 1 tumor, just in different areas of Zach’s body.
We are currently waiting for Cooks tumor board to review Zach’s case before Zach’s doctor at Cook’s will determine next steps. In the mean time, John and Jennifer feels it’s imperative Zach has the BEST surgeon available to take the tumor out b/c it has active cancer cells in it and is very close too Zach’s bladder.They, along with Zach’s local pediatrician, are researching surgeons in the U.S. and looking at possibly choosing a surgeon outside of TX.

This is a huge decision and we need prayer for direction. Pray that Jenn and John and their doctors will make wise decisions at this critical time in Zach’s treatment process. Please pray the process goes smoothly and quickly; also for patience in the mean time. Waiting and not knowing is very hard on everyone.
Zach has big chemo on Friday this week in Ft Worth.He has enjoyed the last 3 weeks at home and is become much more active; he even went to church on Sunday for 3 hrs! His teacher said he had a blast playing with all his friends.
Aaron is starting to enjoy the new more normal routine as a family of 4 and is learning so much in school. Please pray if Zach goes out of TX for surgery, it will work out that he can go with them and enjoy somewhere new as well.
Jennifer and John were matched at Cooks to another family with a child with Rhabdos for support after Zach diagnosis.Bryce is having surgery today and may possible loose his shoulder bone. Please pray the surgeon can save it and give his family peace on what the surgeon thinks is best.It’s very hard to know that your less the one yr old may lose movement on one arm.
God has been teaching me so much about prayer, the vehicle God gave me to commune with him throughout the entire day and tap into the Holy Spirit’s Power to war against my fleshly desires. My flesh sometimes get’s anxious about Zach but what an amazing thing it is to tap into the Holy Spirit and receive and live in Peace, knowing that God is at work, and has everything under control.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:6-7 Julie

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Lord,the one you love is sick

John 11:1-6 is the story of Lazarus and his 2 sisters, Mary and Martha. The sister went to Christ and said "Lord, the one you love is sick" and Jesus answered Lazarus sickness will not end in death. No, it is for the Glory of God.

Mary and Martha were not just reporting to Jesus he was sick, they were asking him to come, to heal him. They seem to be saying "Jesus, if you really love me, then you will prove it by showing up, relieving my pain, and preventing my loss."

Many people look squarely at their suffering and say to ourselves, If God really loved me, he would not allow this. Therefore if he does allow it, he does not love me. Our suffering becomes the soil in which our doubts about God's love grows.

But God's love is sure and certain. He is the definition of love. We tend to interpret God's love by looking at our circumstances. Things are going good-God love us. Things are going bad means God does not care. Instead, we must allow the strong and secure love of God to become the lens through which we interpret everything that happens in our lives. When we see our suffering through the lens of God's love, we see that our suffering has meaning and purpose. And while we may never label the suffering as good, we have the consoling confidence that God is going to use it for our good and for His glory!! The love of God supports us and sustains us.

Because Jesus loved Mary and Martha and Lazarus, he wanted to deepen their faith. Because Jesus loved them, he turned the most bitter experience of their lives into a blazing testimony to his love and power. And he will do the same for you-because he loves you.

loved this for today! People ask how I know that I know God is real and in control. I feel His love and joy and He gives me peace daily. Please remember to keep praying for us. Monday we have out 1st re-scans sense June. I am also giving my testimony again Saturday morning. Also pray for Caden-he is at the end of his long 2 yr battle.


PS-this is again from Nancy Guthries One yr book of hope!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

100 Days of Rhabdomyosarcoma

It has been 100 days sense Zach was dx with this cancer. 100 days of test, surgery, treatments, and drugs. 100 days of hoping, praying and learning to trust and wait on the Lord. 100 days of learning and expanding our reach for Christ and other cancer children. I honestly can not wait to see what the next 100 days hold!

Zach and John are home by the way! We are a family of 4 again!