Friday, August 28, 2009

updates for this week

We all are good. Zach only has 3 more radiation treatments!!! more on what is going on with him is on his caring bridge site linked on last weeks post.

The wedding was wonderful! Chrissy was a beautiful bride. We all had fun as a family and I was super tired when i got in at midnight from helping clean up!

I am giving my Testamony on Sunday morning at FBC and could use prayer. Here it is for your reading pleasure! Plus the link to the song I am singing. Please pray God will move and touch others!

My name is Jennifer Cartwright my husband, John, and I have two wonderful boys, Aaron( who is 4) and Zachary( who is 2). Things had been going along as planned until June 1st of this yr. On this day my life and the life of my family changed forever. Our son Zachary was dx with Rhabdomyosarcoma, which is a pediatric cancer.

That 1st night I prayed all night long. Philippians 4:6-7 and Romans 8:26-27 are vs. I now know I was clinging to that night.

Philippians say don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.

We did that even in the small things those first few weeks. We prayed constantly. Prayed for peace and strength. Prayed for wisdom. And God provided. When we did not know how or what to pray I learned the spirit groans for me.

Romans 8:26-27 says the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness. For example, we don’t know what God wants us to pray for. But the Holy Spirit prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words. And the Father who knows all hearts knows what the Spirit is saying, for the Spirit pleads for us believers in harmony with God’s own will.

The spirit groans for me! How amazing to know that even in my darkest hr when I had no idea how or what to pray the Holy Spirit was groaning for me on my behalf to God Almighty!

We are all taught God has a perfect will for us. He has carried my family through this valley and is teaching us to trust in Him and Him alone.

Luke 14:33 say we cannot be his disciples unless we give up everything we have.

God has asked me to give up control of my life; my family’s life and yes-even give up my child to him.
My will screams for my child to be able to be healed perfect.
God’s will is teaching me to let go and give Him everything.
He carries me, literally through this valley and teaches me He is good.

Friday, August 21, 2009

Please Pray

John is not feeling well at all. His sister is getting married this weekend and I know it means alot to all of us to have him sing. Please pray we have a miraculous healing overnight. Please pray John will get good rest and feel much better tomorrow.

Pray for Chrissy and Brad as they start their new journey as a married couple. Pray for Joan , grandma, and I that we make it through the next 2 day! Lots to do!

here is the link to our caring bridge site again. It list much better then I what Zach need.

Pray this weekend is great!! We need some joy right now!

Friday, August 14, 2009

Our week

John and I actually got to see each other again during the week during big chemo. We went into down town Ft worth and had a wonderful 2 1/2 hr dinner at Simply Fondue(YUMMY!) and talked alot. It was wonderful to get to spend time just the 2 of us! We talked about the upcoming weeks and how we think it might go and how to handle the transition of everyone moving home. We also say GI Joe last Friday and that was wonderful as well.

Aaron is super ready for everyone to stop leaving and just be HOME! But little does he know he is leaving in 2 weeks to start Pre-K! my baby is growing up so fast! Pray he has a blast!

Zach's count are extremely low right now. Pray they increase so he can at least be the cutest flower boy ever with his brother! We might possibly need blood and platelets soon as well. Pray those work well too.

Pray for John and I as we all move home. We have all gotten into habits in the few months we have been apart. I love him but we all know men are just as quirky as us!


Ps-what God has been teaching me this week. Give it all up-even my child. Hard core right! :)
Luke 14:33
any of you who does not give up everything he has cannot be my disciple.

caring bridge post

Zach had an ok week. He was fussy quite a bit but we did get to play outside some earlier this week while the weather was a bit cooler. To the left is me taking Zach for a ride to the park. We both had fun and I got a great workout!
His counts are very low though right now. Counts are how susceptible to infections and sickness he is. Ideally his counts would be 1500, this week they were 500. They almost had to cancel big chemo this week b/c of it but the doctors did decide he should get this week’s chemo but next week’s is in question. Zach will be Neutropenic for the next week which means he will be kept in isolation from other people. He will only be able to be at home b/c he is too susceptible to getting an infection and his body would not be able to fight it. Please pray that Zach’s counts will be raised by next Wednesday which is when he is scheduled to get his next round of chemo. Also, next weekend, John’s sister Chrissy is getting married here in the DFW area and Jen and John are in the wedding. Pray that they are able to attend the wedding and festivities as planned and be a blessing to Chrissy on her big day.
Zach has approx. 5-7 more days of radiation and then he and dad get to move back home! Everyone is looking forward to that day (everyone except Aunt Julie who will miss Zach dearly!). He also has 2 more rounds of small chemo and 1 round of big chemo before he reaches his 15 week re-evaluation. The re-evaluation will help the doctor’s gage how Zach is responding to treatment and look at other options as well depending on the results. We are all eagerly awaiting his first evaluation.
Keep Praying,
“.....for I am the Lord, who heals you."
Exodus 15:26

Friday, August 7, 2009

The Weekend!

John and I get to spend the weekend as a family with our boys! We love this time. We are leaving the boys with my mother tonight and going to see GI JOE! YEAH!!! love ya mom!
Tomorrow is the in-laws time and I get to go spend time at faith mission! Sunday is church and Aaron and I are going to the water park again!

here is my sisters update from our care bridges site.

Friday, August 7, 2009 12:09 PM, CDT
Since Tuesday, Zach has had a really good week. He has been feeling much better and even has had the desire to play! We have been playing with play dough, stamping, coloring, puzzles, chasing the dog around the house, playing fetch with the dog and all sorts of fun stuff! He even decided he wanted to eat some of our lasagna one night, some chocolate pudding one night, and lasagna again another night which is so good for him! We are so thankful his nutrition seems to be under control right now. Please continue the prayer his body will absorb all the nutrients he needs.
We also found out this week that after radiation is complete in another 3 weeks, Zach will be able to get “small” chemo in Wichita Falls. This is such great news because it means they will be home as a family so much more during the remaining 30 or so weeks of treatments.
Please keep praying for the strain’s on the family as they are separated for about 3 more weeks and are growing tired and weary.
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Matt 11:28

thanks for all your support and prayers!! We have big chemo(all 3) on Wednesday and I leave Tues night for ft worth.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Yesterday, Today, and Tomarrow

I am tired. to tired to blog. to tired to move. To tired to work. Yet I am at work. I am going to church tonight. I am going to make it through the next yr. I am confidant my child will recover. MY God is a great big God who deserves all the glory and praise for yesterday. I listened to my old passion CD from 1997 on the way home and just Praised him for who He is and What He is doing in our family. here is what my sister wrote yesterday.

Praise Jesus! Zach gained 1 pound! Thank you to all that have been praying. Zach was not hospitalized today which is great news.
He did have chemo today, a blood transfusion, and was given platelets because his counts were very low when they checked them today. They said his fussiness was probably b/c he was starting to feel a little pain so they gave him some pain medicine to begin taking, along with some new anti nausea medicine to try. He is on a lot of medication right now which means he will probably be more tired during the day but please pray for this side-affect to be minimal.
Please pray that Zach will continue to get all the nutrition his body needs and that he will begin to feel better, even have the desire to play!
Thank you for following us on this journey,
Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer.
Romans 12:12

Please continue to keep us in praying. We are all tired and weary. Aaron needs me and all I want to do is sleep.

Sunday, August 2, 2009


my sister says it best. please pray. He threw up again after she posted this. We added another med for nausea after calling the on-call Dr. PLEASE. PRAY! Malnutrition is a main killer of kids with cancer. it causes all source of other problems. We need more peace and Zach needs his nutrition desperately.

Sunday, August 2, 2009 1:44 PM, CDT
Last week was a rough one for sweet Zach. He started the week with some nausea/vomiting that took a few days to get under control. On Tuesday he saw his oncology doctor who had concerns in regards to his rapid weight loss. He had lost 2.2 lbs in one week. The doctor wanted Zach to get 1 more feeding each day. He also added a high calorie supplement to his food to help him put on some weight. Adding anther feeding means Zach’s digestion system is working even harden which is leading too the nausea (this is a side affect of the radiation being targeted too his abdomen). Logistically the feedings are hard on Zach and his parent’s b/c this means he is being feed almost all day. Because of the daily radiation, he cannot have feedings after midnight, until after radiation everyday. He is feed through a feeding tube and during feedings he is confined to sitting in one space. He did not get to play very much this week b/c of the confinement. Our hope is that once the nausea is under control we might be able to speed up the feedings so he is not being feed almost the entire day. Tuesday of this week Zach will see the oncology doctor again to gage how the extra feeding & high calorie supplement are working. If he does not gain weight, he will be hospitalized so that he can have round the clock care in regards to his nutrition. We need everyone to pray that Zach’s body will respond/absorb the nutrients he is being given and he will gain weight. We want to avoid being hospitalized if at all possible b/c the strain on Zach and the family is very high.

I just heard from Jennifer that this weekend they are dealing with more nausea/vomiting which is very hard to hear. Because Zach does not have radiation on the weekends, they were able to space out his feedings and feed him during the night so they were not expecting his system to reject the feedings this weekend. Jennifer and John are also battling fears in regards to the mal-nourishment Zach is experiencing. Please remember to pray for Jenn and John as well that they would be able the rest in the Lord’s peace.

Aaron, Zach’s big brother, on the other hand had a wonderful weekend! He went to the lake house with Gigi & Papa, Uncle Anthony & Aunt Katie cousins and friends and he had a blast! Aaron even learned this weekend how to jump off the boat house! During my conversation with Jenn today, as she told me about Aaron and how much fun he had at the lake she was beaming as she told me about it. Thank you for all who prayed for Aaron and his adjustment during the season of treatment for Zach. Keep up the prayers.

I’ll post on Tuesday after Zach sees the doctor again.